Very Peri-Menopausal
Reflections, ruminations, and great wailing & gnashing of teeth by a 40-ish woman entering peri-menopause... that wondrous time of evolving bodily existence which visits all women, sooner or later, and presages the stage we call "menopause"
Saturday, December 16, 2006
New Very Peri podcast now available!
New for this week - Very Peri - The Perimenopausal Podcast
I talk about how perimenopause-induced insomnia has actually improved my life, given me more energy and time to pursue the things I care about most in life, and how I overcame a deep personal bias against 'not getting enough sleep'.
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Enjoy!
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Shameless Opportunist Alert: Wyeth Pharmaceuticals
Wyeth Pharmaceuticals is very crafty -- they have a number of women doctors (women of color, no less, oh, and one male doctor) on their site "knowmenopause.com". What gets served up, when you click through, is basically a soft-sell for hormone therapy, which looks a lot more attractive in the graphics, than the other alternatives -- exercise (signified by barbells, which a lot of women are not keen on) and alternative treatments (indicated by a peapod -- soybeans, perhaps? tho' given that most people have never actually seen a soybean in its pristine state -- with the exception of me -- their reaction to "alternative" therapies probably isn't going to be that friendly).
I can only hope that women have enough sense to see through this site as a blatant pitch for hormone therapies and pharmaceutical products. Consider the source.
Symptom of the Week: Insomnia
I've been experiencing some really odd changes to my sleeping patterns. My sleep is all over the place. Sometimes I'll sleep for four hours, sometimes I sleep for seven, sometimes I'll sleep on and off... but I'm rarely able to sleep a full 8 hours (every now and then I'll catch more), as I used to
So what else is new, right? Everything else is changing, so why not my sleeping, as well? After a lifetime of needing at least 8 hours of sleep a night, I find myself either not able to sleep all that much, or just not wanting to. Which is really strange, because I've always been a regular go-to-bed-at-11-get-up-at-7 kinda gal.
Now I'm a go-to-bed-whenever-get-up-much-earlier-than-ever-before kinda gal.
I came across this post on polyphasic sleeping by Steve Pavlina (who I stumbled upon a few months ago, and just re-stumbled upon yesterday. He makes some interesting points, and while I'm not about to start sleeping three hours a night and take regular naps during the day, his post does have some interesting ideas, not least of which is the idea that you can actually have a rich and fulfilling life without sleeping 1/3 of it away.
It's not such a bad thing, really, this insomnia. Aside from being really tired in the afternoons... but that passes if I just keep at what I'm doing, have a cup of coffee, go out for a walk, spend some time on things I love to do, etc. I find myself able to really function well, despite feeling tired, and I wonder if all these years I haven't been missing out on a lot of time to get things done, just because I thought I was tired. And I thought I shouldn't be...
This weirdness to my sleeping patterns started several of years ago, when I was working on a really intense project that had me at my wits' end for months on end. I mean, it was bad! So much stress... I never want to go there again... and I was sleep-deprived for about a year. I didn't get more than 4-5 hours of sleep each night, which I now realize was probably partly due to perimenopause, as much as it was due to the stress of the job. And it was making me nuts!
Job strss + "hidden" perimenopause + Kay = insomnia
The thing that made me craziest, however, was the idea that I should have been sleeping more. I developed this huge complex around my sleeping patterns -- an actual inferiority complex about not being physically able to sleep. There's a lot of medical research out there that says people need to have enough sleep to get along in life, and that we should all be getting around 8 hours a night. And I believed it. But I couldn't sleep that much -- no how, no way, no matter how hard I tried -- and it was making me crazy.
I finally gave up about a year ago. I just quit trying to sleep, when I couldn't. And I started getting up when I felt like it.
Now, I set my clock, but I just get up when I feel like it. I don't worry about getting up at any certain time, because my body wakes me up regularly befor 7:30 each day (plus, I have a really flexible job, so I can get there when I get there). I just go with the flow and don't hassle over things. I just sleep when I can, but I don't make myself miserable for not sleeping "enough". When I need to sleep, my body will tell me. And I'll sleep.
Unless, of course, it's the middle of the day and I'm at the office.